Hey, just a quick reminder that ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT RETURNS NEXT WEEK. That’s all.
I have a second tattoo all planned out in my head and I thought I wanted it on my arm but I just decided on another spot for it.
It means is can be bigger and more easily hidden and I’m kind of really excited for it !
I probably won’t get it for a few more years since I’m not working but that’s okay! More time to change my mind and decide if I really love it ! :)
I slept all day and I’m not tired but I’m laying in bed trying to sleep.
Every tiny thing is bugging me so much I want to scream and hit things.
At least when I’m depressed I can sleep my life away and cry and watch a movie or something.
When I’m agitated like this all I can do is lay here in the dark, seething and sweating and holding my eyes closed so tight it hurts.
I need to relax and I can’t. I can’t do anything when I feel like this. I need some weed to smoke so I can exhale completely and have a shower without wanting to peel my skin off
But when I ask my boyfriend to buy some he says
‘What’s the rush?’
Don’t worry about it. Don’t rush. Just take your time and in the mean time I’ll be a complete jerk, say things I don’t mean, push you further away and waste more and more of my days. I’ll break things and hate everything and want to slap you for not saying hello the right way.
I hate feeling like this because I can’t explain it. When I’m depressed no one really knows how to help but at least they kind of understand.
I don’t know how to make anyone understand this. I don’t know what to do when I’m like this